Unbearable Pain: A Personal Fight Against the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It began on a dreary weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sharp sensation bloomed behind my one eye. Then came quick jolts, similar to electric shocks. As each class came and went, the pain subsided and then came back with greater force. Multiple times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared frequently that fall, and once more in spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the commute, full-blown agony in class by mid-morning. In late 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches typically start with severe pain around one eye that persists up to several hours.

About 1 in 1000 individuals suffer by the condition, and men are more often affected. Cluster headaches usually start with abrupt, severe agony around one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which arrives in periodic bouts; others have continuous attacks, defined by the lack of long pain-free periods.

What unites patients is the intensity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the figure dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, 74, a long-term sufferer from Wales, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, like many triggers, made things more intense. After having alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.

Still, the inability to plan life around erratic attacks took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The earliest description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They linked the ailment to an malevolent entity who attacked his victims' heads.

Ancient medical records propose bizarre remedies for what modern experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a distinct condition, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European doctor who provided the first comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally classified by global headache committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel that delivers blood to the head. Prominent specialists in treating the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers published the results of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, published in a major medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.

Despite such progress, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's attacks started in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple surgeries before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosing and managing happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other primary headache conditions, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do symptoms appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Specific features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But many first go to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.

A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an episode since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in 2021; a calm volunteer talked them through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack eased.

Official guidelines on management advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the attacks of well-known individuals.

But leading neurologists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer treatment process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the cycle determines the treatment.” Brief bouts with occasional attacks are handled with abortive therapy alone. Longer or more severe periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the side of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.

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Kyle Carter
Kyle Carter

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